Okay. New blog launched at

www.dokebi-horn.blogspot.com

hit the link and add the blog to your bookmarks.

Alrighty, a big thanks to everyone who`s waiting for my new blog to arrive. here`s a quick update- Most of the templates have already been finalize. Right now, i`m in the process of creating the pictures. To let you guys in on what to expect-

1.The pictures will be artistically taken using my sony cybershot and developed and enchanced using photoshop. thanks to kok for lending me his photoshop 5.5. not exactly the latest, but still do-able.

2.Context of the blog will be more expressive then before, i`ll do alot of commenting on certain stuff that i picked up on the news, in life or anyway. basically a hell lot of comments which could mistaken me as some kinda male bitch.

3.Lesser singlish. Hooray.

4.Better paragraphin. short and sweet. may look long, but readable to the eyes.

5.Less of my personal life whining unless i really need to scream about it. Hoooray, nic can stop his sappppy shhiiit. [emily be glad]

6.Loads of photos together with text. [OH FUCK! i`m a 56k modem-er. Too bad.]

7.Lot`s of opportunity for people to comment on. i`ll invite you all to talk about it, and feel with me, hate with me and love with me. Less of my I-am-king-this-is-my-will-and-you-don`t-come-and-fuck-with-me-attitude.

8.More matured kinda topics like Sex. haha. okay maybe not. Kidding. [looks at jordan`s glum face. Oh, sorry bud. not 18 yet. *grins-]

9.Basically, it`s an excuse to not remember my pathetic, dreadful secondary 4 life.

10.To be reborned again, online. I admit, i`m an exhibitionist. i love attention. i crave online attention anyway. so i`ll try my very best to ensure my blog is worth the loading time.


And, woah, i just realize blogger changed it`s template. Looks better. i`m not sure whether it`s better, but i guess i`ll explore more of it when i have the time.

Other then that, ciao everyone.

PS- I hope to launch it somewhere near next week.

Hellos and Goodbyes

A big hello to the everyone. Been awhile as usual. I have finally come to a decision to make this post, the last post of this blog. I thank my faithfully blogders who travel millions of bytes to this holy shrine. But the Pope has decided to close it for awhile.

Well, mainly because i`m going to change my blog totally. And i also need to start on a clean slate. This blog has too much personal rants and tear jerking romancing/family/flaming/bitching shit. I read thru the older entries, and it has brought me much memories, which i wish it never existed.

So, i`ll work on my new blog templates, find a stable image host, and stuff. I promise, that the next blog would be extremely interesting. It would still be about my life, but i`ll probably digress into politics and world stuff. yeah. i`m venturing out to write and speak like some poltical science student. so, it`ll be in witty english and just me, my loyal readers- it will be worth waiting for every update.

Why suddenly that decision? Well, i`m making sure that i`m keeping my english at tip top condition. I`m afraid that my constant exposure to ITE-singlish would kill my extremely talented and beautiful mind. Note the arrogance- I deserved that praise. haha. Okay, enuff of my egoist yakking.

I`ll official annouce the birth of my new blog once i have settled the mini details, and kick off the god damn lag in my computer. [i might be gettin a personal notebook; so Goodbye fucking computer]. I can`t wait to actually do what i really want to now. But i really have to get a good stable image host. My blogs will be filled with pictures, as much as possible [abusing my sony cybershot prowness and my photo-taking abilities].

Alrighty kiddo, shall part this sad and sloppy blog. It`s nice crapping my pathetic life into you, blog. But right now, it`s gonna be different.

This blog will still exist, for the sake of existance. it will serve me as my tomestone of memory. The death of those old and painful memories, and the birth of a new me [on the virtual world; i`ll probably still be the same old dick anyway. er, i mean nick.]

Ciaos, Adios, Sayonara, Zai zian, bye bye [malay], bye bye [indian].

Fuck, my last vulgarity on this blog. haha.

template`s dead
notice that. looks like the school shut down the web space for the pioneer. bastards.

Home Alone: Singapore Edition + The babysitter: Grandmother Edition
Put it together, and you`ll get Nicholas in singapore with his brother together with his grandma, without his mum and dad. moi parents went to australia. well, 3 days already. just so busy right now. haha. everything`s pretty normal. cept i do the laundry and stuff. pretty alright.

heard from mum and dad it`s freezing at australia. so good. even my aircon doesnt freeze me up -.-" I demand to be there as well! #$%@#$% just because john has his mid year examination -.-" haiz.

and oh yeah, i bought my new hook ball. 13 pound beast master. wicked. very nice backend, but i still can`t tame this beast yet. haha. need to maximise it`s potential.

Life`s pretty okay now. nothing fancy, not great. that`s why i haven blog for such a long time. hopefully once school starts lah.

oh yeah, didnt mention about the day i went to ITE dover to make payments. it`s not too shabby. lot`s of guys, but most of the girls there are chio-bu! haha. haven seen my batch yet. according to fairuz [he went a day earlier], he didnt even see any girls. hahaha Engineering courses all guys waahhah.. too bad.

anyway. that`s all. pretty tired. hope mum and dad`s enjoying themselves. i am too. not.

howdy folks.
been a while since i updated. did some research on my upcoming education institute. well, it isn`t as bad as my mentally rejected state of mind imagined it to be. i guessed it`s good stuff. close to a poly kinda situation but i`m just wearing uniform. that`s all.

ITE WEST: Dover. it`s right smack in the middle between NUS [ooh, smart-asses] and AC(i) [omfg. hate those gay bitches from hell.] okay, aside from the fong shui ding dong, this school is has mainly higher NITEC coures. meaning- smart but lazy people like me. meaning- almost could go to poly but got fucked because of either maths or something. well, so i`m thinkin the environment and pace could be pretty well off for an asshole like me. haha. Seen the some pictures of the school, looks good. feels good. and i think i might succeed. Probably i`m right this time. Working hard here, and moving up to poly. Isn`t that bad after all ya. I mean, i`m just a year late that`s all.

Well, aside from the edu rift raft.. i checked thru the CCA listings and..... hahaha. they have BOWLING! Good. i`m so happy. I`m looking soo forward to going to school. [my intention is to study hard and play harder; that`s where bowling comes to play. haha.]

Not too bad for the icing on the cake. Will have to go down on the 29th to make payment. And check out the people around. Shall bring my dear Sony Cybershot to take pix [that`s if there is any thing to take]. hopefully, i`ll get to see chio bus around.. haha..

Time for my resolution. yeah, it`s always talk but no action- but at least there`s direction.
- Emerge top 3% of my course cohort [Infomation Technology]
- Bowling as my CCA
- Find a girl and settle down [optional]
- Lose my virginity [optional;dirty joke- don`t take me seriously]
- Move on the Poly Year 2 at the end of ITE Year 2


Well, looks good to me huh? Though the settle down kinda scares me. marriage? erm no way. not yet. haha.

blown over.
everything`s okay now. everyone pretending nothing`s happening right now. well i`ll just leave it like that. not gonna delete that whole entire post. i think leaving it there would serve me a good memory to know how pissty i can get sometimes. *shrugs*

foul and depressive mood.
I sick and tired of all of your god damn fucking bullshit. you all claim to never look down on me. now listening up, i know you fucking hate me because i fucked up my fucking o levels. i know this shit. don`t fucking lie to me. whenever i want to do things, you will give me all the fucking bullshit and denying me all my stuff. FUCK you. honestly you want respect? I seriously doubt so.

As your son i have tried my very best. yeah. go laugh, go tell your bloody relatives he`s stupid. what fucking ever. when i started work i gave you a large portion of my pay without complains. why? because i loved you all. and then you seem to forget you ingrateful bastards. you always think i`m god damn rude. you fucking think i don`t care. you honestly think so? god damn it, you don`t know how i feel.

being trap in this situation always leads to more fucking fights. you enjoy confrontation do you? huh? always expecting to be right. Listen, you are humans. you are no better then i am. the only fucking rights you have is the one the government gave you. if you hate me so much, don`t blame me. just blame your damn folly for fucking me out to this god damn world where i get fucking toss around in this god forsaken shit pile and then leading to this hell hole.

you say i procastinating. i say i`m deciding. you say i`m full of shit. i`m fucking tired of your nonsense. perhaps you can go send me to hell so i`ll never bother you ever again.

you always think i`m taking your money right? fine. i`ll never touch your stinking money. i`ll work my way off. yes i`m stupid. i`m an ITE student. so what? i`m still alive. i got legs and hands. i`ll fucking earn my money and buy a house in australia and you all can fucking burn in the hot hell weather of singapore.

I can`t believe with what you said to me. what crap you say about not being good with words. i can UNDERSTAND the most stupidest of idiots who talk, let alone you. YOUR my mother. i know what the fuck you are talking. don`t give me that- "i try very hard to talk to you bullshit."

You don`t talk. you yell. and i yell. talking to you always mean yelling. I LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH. YET I HAVE to FUCKIGN YELL at You all the fucking time. I know you LOVE ME but what`s the FUCKING GOD DAMN problem with us. I don`t see why we should bother wasting time yelling but argh fuck i don`t know.

GOD WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING TO MY LIFE. you screw my life up. you brought me to this world. GAVE ME TURMOR WHICH NOBODY FUCKING KNOWS. and den make me a troublesome baby to my parents. I HAD TO go to hospital SO MANY FUCKING TIME. then made me an average joe in primary school. you made my chinese fucking crap. den i barely scrap my PSLE. you suddenly became good and made me everything in sec 1 and sec 2. i was the monitor, prefect, sports leader, every single god damn leadership postition known to man. and you enjoyed watching me tumble. you made me egoistic. you made me shallow. i fell. i tumbled. i was hated. i recieved threat calls from gangs. i was almost beaten by my best friends. then u gave me a girl whom i truely love. then u made her give me hell. MY RESULTS tumbled even more. I was made to be interested in ARTS. i doodle more then i study. i color and drew so much art work. I joined AI CLUB, my ESCAPTISM WORLD. you made me good at it. and den it pulled my results further. I worshipped you so much at sec 3. preached to the youths at 15. impressed so many church goers. and look what fucking happened.

and the final stage my o level failed. my maths. i did so much practice. friends would always laugh at my results now laugh in their hearts when i`m now an ITE student. YES, it`s all your god damn fault. I am trying my very best to look forward, but u made people like DARREN who will love to make fun of me in ITE. you think it`s funny? try fucking me in an ite. i`m sure a fool like you would do well in it, so much for claiming to be RAFFLES JC standard. my fucking ass.

I don`t care what everyone say now. this is my fucking problem. you know i`m vulgar. i don`t fucking care whether this needs an NC-16 rating or what. I don`t even fucking know why i bother venting out here. i should just cut my wrist and suck my blood and fucking jump of the building. burn me in hell for all i care. my soul`s gone already.

NOBODY. I REPEAT. NOBODY CAN EVER SYMPATHISE WITH ME. Don`t give me your fake ass alligator tears. You have no fucking idea how much this IMPACT is on me. Don`t even assume that i`ll just blow over and all of that god damn Dear-Kelly advice. I`m sick of it. NONE OF YOU CAN BECAUSE ALL OF YOU HATE ME.

AND I HATE YOU ALL.